missing this place of LOVE

The past few weeks Africa and especially Uganda and where I spent my time this summer have been really heavy on my heart. I go through life here each day so fast and never really stop to think of how lucky I am and all the blessings in my life. This past week though I finally allowed myself some much need down (and break down) time. I was wishing so bad just to be sitting on the little pattio of the upstairs room at the White House looking out over the hills of Nansana. Looking through all of my picture of the smiling little childen, tears form in my eyes. They have so much spirit and joy that I feel I don't let myself truly experience in my life back in the states. Sometimes I still feel like I don't fit in with anyone and am just wondering through life. Other times I catch myself living a life that is not me, going through life like I never even experienced all that Uganda had to bring to me. I find those times to be when I struggle the most and fell disconnect from the Lord. Finding a good balance is still a struggle but when I make myself aware, and process my fellings, I am able to run with it. I can't wait for the day when I can make it back to Uganda and have yet another amazing and unforgettable experience.